Getting the tattoo, because I want to remember mommy in this way. Because she's worth all the pain-in-ass I got myself, she's far more worth the pain. Not to deny, I'd constantly find some stuffs to do which can bring me the pain physically, this is one of the ways I do to temporarily stop the mental pain I'm going through everyday. Not that healthy, but this is how I can help to ease myself. A friend told me he's acknowledged that when someone in pain, he or she tends to find something which can hurt him or her physically, just so he or she can feel better. It's a true statement, guess he read from psychology article or something like that. Afterall, quote from John Green 'pain demands to be felt'.
So I did a lot of research on the Internet, and planned to have my first-ever-tattoo-in-this-21-years at Dragonfly Tattoo, because I saw a lot of good comments from the customers and their tattoo artists all look friendly, by that I mean easy to be approached type haha. I know it's of no good to judge people from their looks, but friendly looks make me comfortable. So I made an appointment with one of the female artists. Then planned to go after my study tour for my course purpose and to meet my lovely panni because she studies at KL.
On 21st March, I took the train all the way from my university, which is at Kampar to KL sentral. Then had my breakfast there, to increase my glucose level so I would not faint during the tattoo later. LOL! At 11a.m., I reached Midvalley then went to the uppest level which the studio is located.
Greeted by a guy, asking some questions only I realized the artist I made appointment with actually does not work here, she already transferred to 1Utama. Leaving no choice, I had to cancel the appointment with her, I'm so sorry, I truly am. Because I don't have any free time to go to KL again since my schedule for the trimester was actually very full. I felt so embarrassed and wicked, because I made an appointment but then had to cancel with her. Gosh I honestly felt like slapping myself that time. So asked the guy artist if he could take the appointment over and he said yea.
I showed him the design I wanted, with the three alphabets of my mom's name on top of it. He used around 15 mins to print it out and made some improvements (I guess? LOL). Then I was led to the room, I was given a towel to wrap myself because the place I want to be tattooed was 5cm below the collarbone. I still could not really picture the idea of letting a male artist to tattoo me at this intimate part (at least for me it is). But no choice, after that I just did as what I was told. After that we both realized actually no towel was needed, just I had to lower down both the straps (romper strap and bra strap of course). So he started the process. The skin was cleaned with the alcohol, then the paper he printed earlier which was the design I wanted, was pressed on the skin for few mins. Then it was pulled out, and I saw a bluish outlined design. He asked me to check if the position and the size were as I requested. Then everything was ok, we went on for tattoo.
When I lied down, I started to feel a little nervous, asking him if it was painful. HAHA! I guess everyone who's gotten tattooed before would ask right? Then he replied 'hmm not that painful but it's impossible if you expect no pain at all.' Very much agreed to what he said. He's really a friendly man, nice to talk to as well. And he gave me their WiFi password, so I did not have to use my own data. How kind of him! Then I was busy to whatsapp with my friends, or maybe I was pretending to be busy haha. Then I was really busy telling them about the process of tattooing, about my crush (if not mistaken, LOL) so that all those chatters could distract me. He switched on the radio beforehand, and I still remember the first song which came up was '以后别做朋友', which is an emotional song. I tried not to be affected. Then the second song overtook, which was '小幸运'. I was like whyyyyyyy? whyyy all emotional songs? Hahahaha! He let me checked all the tools and needles he was going to use, to ensure they've not been used before.
Ok, here it went, the first needle penetrated through my epidermis, then my dermis. I was like OMG OMG OMG so painful. LOL! Ok, I'm exaggerating it. To be honest, it was quite painful. You can refer here to see the pain level of each part of body where you want to get your tattoo on. Then he asked me if it was painful, I think I replied not that bad, obviously trying to act stronger than any men I've met. Then he went on, we were chatting at the same time too. But the conversation did not go long, maybe because I was awkward. Ok or maybe he did not want to talk to me haha.
It took me one and a half hour for the whole process if I remembered correctly. Then it was done. 'Yeayyyy, it shall be on my body till I become ashes', I thought to myself. He put on a piece of hmm, I don't know what it's called, a piece of transparent paper on it. Then I was advised to remove the paper after 2 hours. Then I made the payment and thanked him and then met up with my friend.
We went for lunch and then movie, with her boyfie. Met after so long, but never felt a singly awkwardness. That's what proved the real friendship or sisterhood we share. She's really my best bestfriend. Well, I plan to remove the paper after movie but obviously it had fallen before that. Maybe just after half an hour of walking out the studio, it already fell. I'm kind of clumsy girl, so yea nothing much to expect from me haha.
Then around 6pm I went back to KL Sentral, waiting to take the train back to Kampar. Of course my lovely panni and her bf accompanied all the way to KL Sentral, waited me till the train reached. Having to meet her after so long is definitely one of the best thing ever.
If you asked me how painful it was, the answer is 'It is nothing as compared to the pain of losing my mother'. The pain was nothing at all. Frankly, I felt so good after the tattoo, because the physical pain eased me from the mental pain, even it's just temporarily.
Ok here's the photo of my tattoo. Oh yeay, forgot to tell you guys the artist which I went to named Marcus,if anyone wants to get tattoo, you may find him. He's really friendly and professional, I've seen his artworks before.
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| Floral with my mom's name |
So it looks pretty right? Thanks to Marcus.
Well yea I got inked but don't judge. People who get inked usually have their reasons, like for my case it's because I want to and I choose to remember my mom this way. I want to undergo the pain again using this way.
That's all for now, bye xoxo
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