Hey there October, blessed as ever, still breathing by improving myself as days pass. *at least I realize I'm changing to be better* So well, it's pretty fast huh! It's October now, indicating 2015 is going to be part of the memories in this lifetime, ahhhh time kills me! But I'll live, to the fullest by involving myself into meaningful stuffs. DEFINE meaningful. Ah ha, don't ask me to define meaningful.
Have been doing some homework on volunteerism to sign up for, still considering which to choose and thinking about some other aspects too. As an university student myself with no income and hectic schedule, so probably couldn't make it to volunteering abroad. Shall make it in my to-do-list for my future. Secondly, I've been searching for some make-it-easy-for-me venue. I mean the head office, or at least the place we gather shall be easy for me to get myself there since I don't drive. Yeay at the age of 20 and still haven't taken my driving test yet. Soon babe, I'm gonna take the test soon so please be patient with me. Thirdly, probably thinking what contribution I can bring for the people in need. So overall, yeay this sembreak I'm gonna figure all these out and sign myself up for volunteerism.
Next guess what? We broke up. OK, don't tell me the 'I told u so', I'm so not going to take it. But I can prove at least I felt his honesty and pure love, and of course I did love him with my heart too. Yeay, LDR relationship isn't that easy, with different backgrounds, cultures, languages and so on. Haha, you guys must be thinking I was a fool. Tell you what, I wasn't a fool and I'm not. In my 20s, at least I'd tried something crazy like this, I risked my time falling hard for him, loving him with all my heart, exposing him my truest self and never regretted, and will never regret it too in the future. Broke up for the reason his parents start getting him a bride as the term arranged marriage which is pretty common in their culture. Yet I'm glad for I did love him and I did learn how to actually fall in love with someone so honestly and purely. He taught me a lot of things that I never got to learn from the first one. Because of him, I learn to love myself and others, I learn what's the pure laughter and smile, a lot more that I can't name them all. So I'll never regretted of this love, what matters the most for me is the purest form of love. So good luck for you man, take care of her if your parents happen to find one and treat her well. You might not see this, but I still want to thank you for everything and wish you all the very best.
So what else?Hmmm, I'm looking for my 21st presents too during this sembreak. What I'm going to get myself, oh please don't ask me to name them, I think there's lot I want to get but I'm broke at the same time. I'm not born with the silver spoon, so I don't want to waste my mommy's money. Well I wasted a lot. Thinking of getting myself a new crucifix necklace for this 21st of becoming Liz instead of getting the key necklace like others do. Key doesn't mean anything for me to be honest, but Jesus does, He means a lot to me. So I want to get Jesus or the cross He bears for us for my 21st as the most precious present ever. Besides, thinking of getting a new watch. Have been eyeing on this elegant one. Pretty classic and elegant huh? I've been looking for a pair of running shoes as well, the old Nike kind of spoiled. The rubber at the bottom broke into smaller pieces and fell, and kind of can't run if wearing it. But it was pretty expensive, well for me it was. It costed around RM400++, so felt kind of sorry to just throw it. Ah, saddening situation. Wanting to get a bag too, well bags actually. LOL! School backpack kind of damaged. And wanting to get myself a sling bag to make me girlish when I hang out. Haha, just kidding. But well, to allow me to keep my stuffs when I hang out. you know I can't hold the purse by putting everything inside, the purse is only meant to keep some little stuffs, not every stuff.
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